A Constant Mess

For anyone who doesn’t know that I’m a constant mess restrained by God’s grace- I’m here to tell you that I am! I’m constantly battling with failing, inadequacy & unworthiness. I have doubts & fears. I weary myself with striving. I feel unimportant & uncared for more often than I let on. And sometimes I go into not so good places within for protection (that would be my introverted self)!
So, when you see anything “good” come from me… please know, it’s DESPITE me and entirely because of God’s grace through Christ & His Spirit who sustains me. Otherwise, I honestly would not be here even able to write this post!
If you don’t let Jesus have you, the opposition will. When the enemy comes rushing in for me though, my Savior is my Protector. He defends me from the evil forces trying to snatch the light & life from me. It’s my Lord who holds me close when I want to run, hide & do anything just to silence the noise inside & stop the pain.
You ever go through that kind of despair? I do. And there’s honesty for ya. Healing comes from being truthful about where you’re at though! So, don’t ever look at someone like they have it altogether because they do not- I definitely don’t. But I have Him- Jesus. And He’s my EVERYTHING & my MORE THAN ENOUGH. He carries me with strength when I’m weak & lifts me up when I’m down. Without this greatest love I’ve ever known, I’m sure I wouldn’t be here by this point!
But Jesus has something to say through the messes like me. You were worth dying for!!! Remember that when you’re so heart crushed you can’t even breathe. He will resuscitate you because He’s your very breath! I’m in that place right now where I know I need His power! And someone else reading this does too. Let’s fall into the arms of our Father this day! There’s not much more I can do. And that’s probably where He wants me. No more striving. Just resting in His warm embrace. Come there with me, won’t you? There’s room enough! <3
We seek Your presence, Yahushua! 🙌

 

7 Replies to “A Constant Mess”

  1. Love it sweet sis. His beauty shines brightly through your brokenness. I think that’s where he wants us all. 😘

  2. Thank you for writing this. I can sooo relate in a lot of ways. Often times it’s easy for me to dwell on my failings and feel overwhelmed by what I should have done or need to change in my life instead of resting in Jesus knowing He’s the one that can carry me through and He’s the only one that can truly change me because He’s the one that has shown me what needs to be changed.
    It takes courage to be open on a blog knowing someone might be critical, but just remember someone might need to hear it and it can help them.
    🙌🏻

    1. AMEN, Doreen! And that is why I released this blog… to help the one(s) who need to hear that they are not alone, even though the walk may seem lonely! Love you!!! Please keep on taking this journey along with me! <3

  3. Amen! No place else I’d rather be than resting in his arms. The enemy lies in wait as a lion preying on a grazing gazelle in these times. To be aware and know we are just but a fragile human but we have a strength and power in HIM. Sometimes we just need to fall in his arms.

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